Sometimes I like to look back at my old self. Immature, naive yet full of creative ambition. I would love to hang out with him and teach him the things I know now and what I realized along the way.
Sunday, 24 May 2015
Saturday, 23 May 2015
Saturday, 25 April 2015
Tough Decisions
Sometimes you just have to let go of things that don't make you happy, or rather what you don't see yourself doing for the past ten years. It's not being selfish but if you think that you want to do more than just what you're doing....you're gonna have to decide if you should leave or not.
Making My Own Adventures
Getting out of the comfort zone is difficult. I've been dealing with it all my life. I'm not really pampered but I grew to be dependent on my parents even if they do their best to make me decide things on my own (which I couldn't do but I'm gradually learning to).
Right now, I do things that I wouldn't do regularly like walking from my house to a place without riding any public vehicles like tricycles and jeepneys. From there, I start to observe more of what's going on around me unlike when I usually ride in the car or other vehicles. I've also been to a few places where I haven't been before and I think it's very exciting and inspiring.
I usually don't feel safe nowadays because people here would do anything to get what they don't have, even if it means to kill another person. I think going on these kinds of adventures help me see the real world and I think people shouldn't be afraid. They should just keep their eyes open and their senses working so they won't get into such trouble.
I still don't know what else I can do just to get out of that comfort zone but I have a shit ton of ideas. I should write them down in a notebook and I'll do some of them eventually.
Right now, I do things that I wouldn't do regularly like walking from my house to a place without riding any public vehicles like tricycles and jeepneys. From there, I start to observe more of what's going on around me unlike when I usually ride in the car or other vehicles. I've also been to a few places where I haven't been before and I think it's very exciting and inspiring.
I usually don't feel safe nowadays because people here would do anything to get what they don't have, even if it means to kill another person. I think going on these kinds of adventures help me see the real world and I think people shouldn't be afraid. They should just keep their eyes open and their senses working so they won't get into such trouble.
I still don't know what else I can do just to get out of that comfort zone but I have a shit ton of ideas. I should write them down in a notebook and I'll do some of them eventually.
Monday, 5 January 2015
2015
Holy shit, it's been a year since my last entry (actually almost a year). I've been so busy and I didn't even bother to check this blog but I promise to update it more often and only a few people know about this blog, but still.
I'm thinking of deleting some of my entries here but I shouldn't because I want to see how much I've progressed in writing stuff and I still have some entries sitting in my drafts folder.
Anyways, 2014 was a great year. I graduated college, started working for my dad and started on some projects that I can't wait to share to everyone.
Generally, last year was also the year I experienced change and growth. When I was in high school and college, I had a rocky relationship with my family but then we all did what we could to keep it together and I'm glad I was able to discuss my problems with them and our relationship got better. Also, I got to realize a lot of things that I had to correct in order to be a better person thanks to my family and friends.
I also learned a lot of things from work. I had a love-hate relationship with it because I really didn't want to work for my dad but I had no choice because it was my way of saying "thank you for everything you've done". At least I got some time to spend with my friends and my hobbies even if free time comes once in a while.
I hope this year will be better than 2014 and I'm looking forward to things that will challenge me and to commit mistakes that I will eventually learn from. I watched a friend's video of her saying that we be kind to ourselves, so I might as well be kind to myself and treat myself in any way I can. Hope y'all do that too.
Happy New Year everyone!
I'm thinking of deleting some of my entries here but I shouldn't because I want to see how much I've progressed in writing stuff and I still have some entries sitting in my drafts folder.
Anyways, 2014 was a great year. I graduated college, started working for my dad and started on some projects that I can't wait to share to everyone.
Generally, last year was also the year I experienced change and growth. When I was in high school and college, I had a rocky relationship with my family but then we all did what we could to keep it together and I'm glad I was able to discuss my problems with them and our relationship got better. Also, I got to realize a lot of things that I had to correct in order to be a better person thanks to my family and friends.
I also learned a lot of things from work. I had a love-hate relationship with it because I really didn't want to work for my dad but I had no choice because it was my way of saying "thank you for everything you've done". At least I got some time to spend with my friends and my hobbies even if free time comes once in a while.
I hope this year will be better than 2014 and I'm looking forward to things that will challenge me and to commit mistakes that I will eventually learn from. I watched a friend's video of her saying that we be kind to ourselves, so I might as well be kind to myself and treat myself in any way I can. Hope y'all do that too.
Happy New Year everyone!
Wednesday, 29 January 2014
The Library
I had a dream once about a huge library. It had crimson concrete floors and mint green marble walls and columns. The shelves stood twenty feet tall and a row of them can be overlooked within a single glance.
The first part of my dream was that I encountered a huge shadowy figure lurking above the shelves and the ceiling. I was with my friends at that time and we were frightened by its monstrous presence. I could sense that it was ready to pounce on unwanted visitors like us, so we prepared ourselves for its attack. The creature must have been the library's guardian or some monster invading the place, but I would very much prefer the former as it did not crash the books or whatever object resides in the library.
It also had three floors. Two spiral staircases stood at both ends of the library. At the base of each staircase erected a statue: a ten foot statue of the founder of the library and at the east wing and a cherub at the west wing. The statue of the founder was made in honor for his contribution while the cherub was donated by an unknown sculptor. The first and second floors were filled with a vast array of books while the top floor was dedicated to media archives. A lot of rare audio and video compact discs can be found there.
The library had staff but they only communicate to visitors when approached.
I hoped to visit this library again.
The first part of my dream was that I encountered a huge shadowy figure lurking above the shelves and the ceiling. I was with my friends at that time and we were frightened by its monstrous presence. I could sense that it was ready to pounce on unwanted visitors like us, so we prepared ourselves for its attack. The creature must have been the library's guardian or some monster invading the place, but I would very much prefer the former as it did not crash the books or whatever object resides in the library.
It also had three floors. Two spiral staircases stood at both ends of the library. At the base of each staircase erected a statue: a ten foot statue of the founder of the library and at the east wing and a cherub at the west wing. The statue of the founder was made in honor for his contribution while the cherub was donated by an unknown sculptor. The first and second floors were filled with a vast array of books while the top floor was dedicated to media archives. A lot of rare audio and video compact discs can be found there.
The library had staff but they only communicate to visitors when approached.
I hoped to visit this library again.
Tuesday, 28 January 2014
Conflicting emotions
There are times where I just feel empathetic and/or sympathetic to other people who are going through bad times. I do my best to feel their pain in order to get a better understanding of their situations. There are also times where I couldn't help myself in my own bad times and feel dependent on others. These emotions go in a conflict and implode in a very bad way. I would just go on about this for hours and I would end up sleeping at dawn.
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